Day 11, 29 of December - I feel so small...

Why do we look to the others and think: Why can't I have his/her life? It seems to be good, no tests, no evaluations, any problem at school, at work or at home... But then I think: I have worthy things to live for, actually I have hundreds, I just have to look around: friends, food, bed... HAHA sorry if you don't appear here, but I bet you do have a critical role in my life.

Smile to life.

Asrubal

Day 10, 21 of November - Second chance?

There are second chances, but no one stops there. Or you have no second chance with someone and if you screw things up, it's over. OR, you keep being an ass, and that person keeps forgiving you. I don't know each one is the worst... Personally i wouldn't accept the fact that i was being an idiot ruining the opportunities that she was giving me, and the only one who was doing sacrifices for that relationship was she. Life is so damn complicated.

Asdrubal

Day 9, 1 of November - "Her lips, her lips..."

"You know I've never asked you to change..." We have to accept the others as they are and never try to change them, but take as a compliment, or a strong feeling as love, if they change themselves for us. It's a big responsibility to change my 'me' for someone, because there are changes we can't go back, and some are really difficult to take, because it really changes us, our lives and the way we live our lives. But, when we do it, when we change ourselves for someone we love, we get an extraordinary feeling, and even a better one, when that person changes his/her life, when we are their choice. WWOOOWW it's so, i just can't explain it, but i hope you'll have the opportunity to live it too :)

Asdrubal

Day 8, 30 of September - Does time heal everything?

Everybody knows this expression: "Oh, don't worry, time will heal everything." BUT, is it true? Unfortunately, I don't believe it. There will be little things for the rest of our lives that will remember us those bad moments, those bad choices we took. Those small things will make us regret about it, but will make us remember the person we were, the mistakes we did, and I bet it will help us not to repeat them again. Today I had one of those moments. It was embarrassing, like those moments when someone punishes you when you do something wrong. and you know it, there is no escape. I would do anything to forget everything i said or did of wrong, and i know it is a lot. Hopefully, i have someone to forgive me.

Asdrubal

Day 7, 18 of September - Am i an athlete?

My life looks like a foot race, sometimes I just want to give up, but my opponents, my obstacles keep me alive, and i re-born when i see the goal, my objective. But then i die, when the goal keep the distance, when i see it getting more and more distant. It's hard when you have nothing to rely on, when our believes just, puf. . .

Asdrubal

Day 6, 12 of September - Choices

Our lifes are made of choices. Easy ones, difficult ones, inevitable ones, etc. The ones I consider the hardest are the no-return, the ones when you hurt someone, and the ones you know you have to obey, knowing you'll get hurt. I'll give you an example of the last one. Someone i know told me this:

"There's a book, that it is about two people, a boy and a girl, that love each other very much, true love (the one that a lot of people believe that doesn't exist, well, here it is you cynics). The girl is very sick, in a very bad condition, and she begs for him to stop the suffering, by killing her. She asks him to shoot her. And in the end, he does it..."

I started to think to myself, if i was that boy... My life, now, is so dam easy, comparing to his. If she was that sick, with no way possible to get better...If she was suffering...I could do it, but then, i would end with my own suffering too.

Asdrubal

Day 5, 12 of August - Friends

Friends is what we need the most! "Love..." "Oxygen..." "Actors..." I don't care what they say about this, i'm sure i'm right! When we are sad or confused, there's no need to tell them, because they know it. It's just like Sixth sense. They are there, when we need, well, at least is what we expect for them to do. Sometimes, they are not what we expect, they are not where we wished... But other times, it's not their choice either ours... I don't believe in destiny, but i just love some coincidences that happen in our lives!
I get sentimentally connected to some locals, that i had very good experiences, but now only memories... And here i leave some of those locals... I know i wrote only some words, but this time, was a sad topic, i promise i'll be better next post :) Cheer up 'till there :)

Lovely portuguese Video :D

Asdrubal

Day 4, 9 of August - Norway ( still )

As i was saying, the next day was amazing! I got up with the sound of a sheep, right under my window. Lovely way to wake up! I ate breakfast with Agnethe at home, and then we went to the bus stop, to go to school. We (all the portuguese people) met in their school again, (i forgot to say that when we arrived Sveio Kommune, we met them at their school and had dinner there) at 8:15 I think. Everyone talking about their homes, and the ones who were receiving us, talking about us, but it was in Norwegian, so we didn't understand a word . :) Then we met new people, as Vilde, Anne Helene, Annhild, Sarah-Louise, Therese, Ingvilde, Bendik, Marie Elisebeth, and more, ( sorry for not putting your names here ), each one went to the respective class-room and we had to present our selfs to the class, very funny :)

We had lunch, at lunch-break, 10:00 am. Each one brought lunch from home, some sandwiches. I can't remember mines, but one had caviar xD

The school day finished at 14:00 and we all went home to rest. After that, we went to Ryvarden, a amazing light house, with a beautiful view and a freezing wind. Before dinner we heard "Hallelujah", sung by Vilde, and in instruments Anne Helene, Therese and Ingvild. Wooow, we were willing to give a bite to something, and we had a very good re-filling dinner, which i don't remember what was, i just know it was good. It might look an ordinary dinner, but we got to know each other in that 'warm' environment, for the rest of the week (and some, for the rest of their friendships which i hope it will lasts for long) . We walk back to the cars and went home, get our head and body, recovered to another exciting day.



Asdrubal

Day 3, 4 of August - Norway

19 of April, in 2009 we ( some school friends, 3 teachers and me) were heading to Lisbon, where we would spend the night (just some hours actually) for then, catch the plane and fly to Norway! and it was what happen :) ! I woke up at 3am. just to have a bath and get things ready. We left to the airport at 4am. Everything was alright, we did the check in and entered in the plane! We 'stopped' in Amsterdam and i bought some flowers to give to Agnethe, the girl who was receiving me in Norway. We got there and it was freezing! Raining too, but, bbrrrr :) We got our bags and caught a bus to downtown, Bergen, and there we caught another bus, this one for 5 hours, to Sveio Kommune. Lovely trip! We got there, half-dead, but excited to meet new people. We had an excellent dinner, which was cooked by the students. (I think they were just willing to get rid of us hihi) .

I met Agnethe there, and her mother, very nice people. We finish dinner and went home. I think it was a land rover. Anyway, when we got home, they showed me everything, and i just couldn't believe! It's so different, but still so willing to be like that! They left the shoes next to the entrance door, they had a HUGE cat and sheep (poor ones, i remember Martin running after them) . I made myself at home and got up to my lovely room. The computer room, in the attic, very warm, very comfy. Woo how i miss things there. Then I delivery the present i had to them and they liked it very much, at least they look like . Then, i went to the living-room and me, Agnethe and her mother, Linda, had a get-to-know-each-others conversation, which i loved! I met (that day) Martin, Agnethe's older brother and Ole, Agneth's father! Very nice people. It was late, so i went to bed. Next day...Well, next day is another story that i'll tell you later :)

Asdrubal.

Day 2, 27 of July - My american friends

At long time ago (last year) an american girl called Dazzle came to Portugal studying for some months. She didn't know how to speak very well Portuguese, but as i can speak a little bit of english, we started to talk. I met her in a funny evening. I was meeting some friends and she was coming with them, and we went to a pub. Everyone went dancing and drinking, except me and her, that were sited, one in front of the other, with nothing to say. After the first minute speaking , it was look like a river made of words, that were all coming out! We had a lot of fun, and from that afternoon, we can say we got good friends :) Unfortunately, she had to go back to USA, and we haven't met again, but (big but) a few days ago, two or three, i was talking to her on facebook, and i met two of her friends, Emma and Jessica, that are lovely and very funny. They have been my company 'till 3, 4, 5 in the morning. I'm glad i know those three amazing girls :)

About the school papers, i forgot it again... I hope they don't mind :)

I leave you again with one lovely (old) music:

Asdrubal

Day 1, 21 of July - Introduction

For now on I'll keep this blog for 100 posts, and I'll do one post per day, but the days won't be consecutive!
Well, as this is my first real blog, please, come and help me :)

I'm a boy, with 15 years old (problematic age) and I am Portuguese. I just pass the national exams with 4 in Math and 4 in Portuguese, in 5, which is good! So now, I'm heading to 10th grade! BIG STEP, but everything will be ok. I just remember that I forgot to delivery some photos of me in secretary of school ! wops xD

Well, and this is my life. I lost my girlfriend not long ago because i was stupid, and now I'm trying to fix things! I'll get you in touch ;D

I leave you with this lovely music!

See ya,

Asdrubal.